The Axe

Herman Hesses's Harry Haller a.k.a The Steppenwolf once said 'The unhappiness that I need and long for…is the kind that will let me suffer with eagerness and die with lust. That is the unhappiness, or happiness, that I am waiting for.

Then Franz Kafka mentioned once that, 'I think we ought to read only the kind of books that wound and stab us. If the book we are reading doesn't wake us up with a blow on the head, what are we reading it for? ...we need the books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we loved more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea inside us.'
He also gave us this “A First Sign of the Beginning of Understanding is the Wish to Die.”
As a diehard traveler just in the beginning of understanding, as a curious vagabond, explorer, wanderer, lone nomad I can not stop being the nameless ghost that walks the earth, learning to understand as I go.  Im just a little ant with every right to live and die the way I seem fit. Every breath counts, every step is one closer to the last one behind the next bend in the road, beyond the next crest.

“The meaning of life is that it stops.” 
― Franz kafka